Blocking out…

So I’m sitting here… it’s 23.12, Max has woken up, woken Zack up, and is now screaming his head off at the top of his lungs, just because he doesn’t want to go back to sleep.

And here I thought I wouldn’t have any more of these posts…

UGH.

When I say he’s screaming…

I mean he’s freaking the fuck out.

Trashing his room.

He doesn’t even know why he’s doing it now.

Needless to say, Zack has been decanted to my bed, with the door closed, and the covers right over his ears.

Luckily that boy can sleep through a lot.

The dog doesn’t even seem bothered by it these days.

At least I’m safe in the knowledge that this is a once or twice a week occurrence now, rather than a nightly one.

It’s become almost easy to block it out now.

I guess I have had nearly four years of training myself to be able to.

The thing is, if I go up, try to cuddle him or calm him down, it works… but the second I leave him, he starts up again.

Even if he seems to have fallen asleep.

Just in the time it’s taken to write this post, the worst of it has stopped.

For now at least.

Thank got for his meds.

I know this won’t last more than 40 minutes, instead of what used to be 3-4 hours.

So I guess this will be a night of listening to music on my ipod, reading blogs, and generally trying to ignore life.

Just for this evening…

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20 Comments

  1. September 3, 2011 / 10:25 pm

    Oh no Marylin, so sorry that this is still going on 🙁 Just hoping the improvements will continue x

  2. September 3, 2011 / 10:34 pm

    Oh it is so hard 🙁

    Good that it is happening less but still hard that it happens at all.

  3. September 3, 2011 / 10:39 pm

    Thanks sweety. It’s nowhere near as bad as it used to be. As I said, 4-5 nights out of the week he sleeps soundly, usually! And even the nights he doesn’t, they’re not usually too bad, and definitely don’t last as long as they did before getting melatonin! *hugs* xx

  4. September 3, 2011 / 10:40 pm

    I guess that’s just the life we lead, isn’t it?
    He’s getting much quieter now… don’t think it’ll be more than 20 min till he drops off now. I hope! xx

  5. September 4, 2011 / 12:36 am

    Perhaps this is due to the stress of returning to a timetable after the holidays. Change can be so hard. I think you are doing fantastic and it is so easy to dismiss how hard it is to listen to it

  6. September 4, 2011 / 3:55 am

    Ugh, when the nights are bad, they’re really really bad. Love you. xxx

  7. September 4, 2011 / 9:22 am

    Ah, sorry to hear that Marilyn. Good to hear that it’s not as bad as before though, poor thing. So hard to see them in such distress but hopefully it will improve even more over time 😉 Stay strong:-)

    xx Jazzy

    PS: Love your header photos…gorgeous!

  8. September 4, 2011 / 9:46 pm

    Just have some ((( hugs )))
    It’s such hard work, isn’t it? I hope it eases off soon .

  9. September 5, 2011 / 2:14 pm

    Thanks sweety. The wee bugger’s figured out how to open the gate now!
    I have a feeling I may actually end up needing to put a lock on the door. :-/

  10. September 5, 2011 / 2:14 pm

    Love you too sweety… we *need* to catch up soon! *hugs* xxx

  11. September 5, 2011 / 2:14 pm

    Thanks sweety… mwah! xx

  12. September 5, 2011 / 2:15 pm

    Thanks honey. It’s not as bad as it used to be, thank god! 🙂 x

  13. September 5, 2011 / 2:15 pm

    Thanks sweety!
    He’s markedly better with the melatonin than without it, that’s for sure! *hugs* x

  14. September 14, 2011 / 10:46 pm

    Oh sweety *big hugs*

  15. September 15, 2011 / 6:36 pm

    Thank you darling… he’s been sleeping much better this week. Fuck, I’ve gone and jynxed myself now!! #fail

    How are you doing sweetheart? xx

  16. September 18, 2011 / 6:39 pm

    My goodness, lady. I don’t know if you are as calm as you sound, but you sound like you are dealing with it so well. I’m glad you can find some things to be grateful for – that it doesn’t last as long and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

  17. September 18, 2011 / 8:58 pm

    Sorry I’m a bit behind (manic holidays and new school start for Sasha!) and have only just read this… really hoping he continues to improve and you are getting some better rest at last. There really is not much worse than sleep deprivation! sending cyber hugs x

  18. September 19, 2011 / 12:08 am

    I just kind of have to block it out.
    One of the ways I do that, if it’s starting to really get to me, is by writing it on here!
    There’s always light at the end of the tunnel… always! 🙂 x

  19. September 19, 2011 / 12:10 am

    It seems that so long as he doesn’t sleep for more than about 30-40 minutes early on during the day, it’s all good… most of the time! *hugs* xxx

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