Happy Birthday Max! The 5 years old edition.

How did you get from this:Max's just born

to this:
Max 5th birthday

So damn quickly, little man?

I can’t believe my baby boy is 5 years old already.

I guess it’s more unbelievable in some ways because you’re still a lot younger in the way you are than your average 5 year old would be.

You’re non verbal, still need a buggy regularly (more for comfort than anything else. It’s your safe place), and can’t sleep through the night.

But then you are an amazing little guy, so you are.

The way you’ve finally started, this summer, to seek me out for comfort if you’re upset.

No more pushing me away while crying and screaming if you’ve hurt yourself or had a fright.

Oh no! Now you come up to me, arms outstretched, desperate for me to lift you up and cuddle you to help you feel better.

That’s progress, my little friend. That’s progress.

I had a bit of a wobble earlier today.

Thinking about when I first held you in my arms.

Realising just how different life turned out from what I expected after having you.

That your life really isn’t what I had hoped it would be.

But it’s something different, not bad.

And that was what I needed reminded of today.

You may not have realised it was your birthday, but that meant I was able to hide your pressies until our family came over to celebrate, which was all kinds of awesome!

You absolutely adore your castle, knights and horses set, and you’ve been playing on it all day!

Pretending that the knights are fighting and climbing up the ladders to get inside.

Using the catapult and giggling away.

And your face when you saw your cake.

The sheer excitement of knowing that you would get to blow out candles!

Oh I wish I could have recorded that instead of carrying the cake through.

It’s moments like these that make everything worthwhile.

And you are so, SO loved.

You always have been and you always will be.

I love you my little man.

Mummy will always be there to cuddle you when you need her.

Always.

x

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9 Comments

    • October 12, 2012 / 6:36 pm

      Thanks, sweety, I will! 🙂 *hugs* x

  1. October 12, 2012 / 12:21 am

    Happy Birthday Max!!!

    • October 13, 2012 / 10:26 pm

      Thanks, lovely! Thinking of you all lots xxxx

  2. October 12, 2012 / 5:28 am

    Happy birthday Max, and happy birthing day Mama. With love xxx

  3. Mirjam Bleker
    October 12, 2012 / 8:10 am

    damn it, even got tears in my eyes while reading this! And you know I am totally not an emotional type of girl! But I remember the struggles with yourself after Max was born and how hard it was for you to go through it as well that we as friends were not able to make you feel better….And look at you now, 5 years later with a beautifull boy and being a strong super-mum with a smile on your face no matter how many hours of sleep you missed and feel blessed with the tiny steps that are made with Max.One smal step for human kind is a huge step for gnome kind 🙂

    big hugs!

    • October 13, 2012 / 10:29 pm

      You are so right, I’m so lucky to see him progressing so much! Much love to you all xxx

  4. November 7, 2012 / 8:33 am

    What a lovely post hope you little man had a wonderful birthday xxxx

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