Hindsight is a pain in the butt.

When I look back over my life there are so many things I see now that I didn’t then.

The way I acted when I first went to boarding school. I missed my mum terribly but I expected way too much of people. In some ways I was really lucky that the school closed down as I had learned from my mistakes and when I started at my new school I made friends much more easily and had a wonderful time there.

Partying too much and not studying enough.

Failing uni when I met J. I didn’t realise, or want to admit it at the time, but I was spending too much time with him over my studies, and I paid for it.

Falling for a guy who didn’t even stand up to his brother for me while I was pregnant and ill. I should have known then, right?

Getting engaged/pregnant/married all too soon. We rushed it. We were madly in love.

Taking him back after he cheated on me the first time. But then I would never have had Max who, despite his troubles, is the most loving happy lil guy.

Hindsight is something that I try not to dwell on. What’s done is done, and there’s no point in living in the past.

Life is about moving forward. Onwards and upwards, and not letting the past bring you down.

Here I am moving on up.

Living life, loving myself, and enjoying the ride.

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9 Comments

  1. October 12, 2009 / 11:11 pm

    Hindsight is a pain in the butt… We all know way too well. Don’t worry, I’m sure everything will work itself out in the end–just don’t dwell too hard. I try not too. *hugs*
    .-= Craig´s last blog ..https://feedproxy.google.com/~r/lifeonthenet/~3/kBSXw0Y38mk/“ rel=”nofollow”>When inspiration goes wrong… An Open Apology. =-.

  2. October 13, 2009 / 8:57 am

    That is very good advice, I think I’ll take it. 🙂

  3. October 13, 2009 / 10:20 am

    There is nothing wrong with making mistakes. There is something wrong if you don’t learn from them, grow a little and move on. It sounds like you’ve done all the right things since you made the unfortunate choices you did and you are making better choices now. Someone once said to me that you can’t love anyone else until you learn to love yourself first. I worked hard on that and I think the rest falls much easier into place after. Big hugs, Julie (aka Seph)

  4. October 13, 2009 / 11:22 am

    I’ve spent so long not loving myself that it’s hard to get out of that way of thinking, but I’m getting there. 🙂

  5. taz
    October 13, 2009 / 9:51 pm

    good news there..

    so good to hear..

    hugs..

  6. October 13, 2009 / 10:09 pm

    Thanks hun, I’m feeling so much better about myself, and I’ve gotta admit – having this place to be able to sort out what’s going on in my head helps loads. 🙂

  7. October 17, 2009 / 10:53 pm

    […] and I got pregnant too soon. Not that I’d have it any other way now, it’s that whole hindsight thing, isn’t […]

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