When I look back over my life there are so many things I see now that I didn’t then.
The way I acted when I first went to boarding school. I missed my mum terribly but I expected way too much of people. In some ways I was really lucky that the school closed down as I had learned from my mistakes and when I started at my new school I made friends much more easily and had a wonderful time there.
Partying too much and not studying enough.
Failing uni when I met J. I didn’t realise, or want to admit it at the time, but I was spending too much time with him over my studies, and I paid for it.
Falling for a guy who didn’t even stand up to his brother for me while I was pregnant and ill. I should have known then, right?
Getting engaged/pregnant/married all too soon. We rushed it. We were madly in love.
Taking him back after he cheated on me the first time. But then I would never have had Max who, despite his troubles, is the most loving happy lil guy.
Hindsight is something that I try not to dwell on. What’s done is done, and there’s no point in living in the past.
Life is about moving forward. Onwards and upwards, and not letting the past bring you down.
Here I am moving on up.
Living life, loving myself, and enjoying the ride.